My Feeling

I feel like crying .. never had such heart broken b4 .. not after for so long.. I really really fall deep in her. Ever since the day i read that post .. ever since then I sad .. and sad, moody and moody. After all this while I prepared when to tell her .. and spend the effort to call her at least twice a month, just to get keep in touch with her and know her more. I really happy that I can at least do that. But now .. she said she like that guy .. if the guy like her .. then they might go together ..

Yesterday chat with her, really feel like telling "Liz !! The gal I mention is u! " .. I really feel like "Liz ! I like you !! " . We had the same thought that the word "love" is really a strong word. So at this case, the word "like" is used on. Do I need to just keep it or just tell ?? I guess I really need to keep it .. my feeling towards her. As I said, lets pray that nothing bad will happen, and happily till after her SPM .. I will confess to her. For I have like Liz for more than 6 months at least. I really supprise that I able to keep it that long. Guess I really care for her, dun want to distract her from study and so on, yet she is in diff stream, she need more time to catch up and so on.

Everyone telling me.. y dun u call her everyday?? Y everytime u see her in church, u just say hi and so on .. never take the effort to talk to her for long ?? Y dun u sms her ?? For all the asnwer is ... I simply want to give her more space, I noe that liz is a person tat prefer more space than some guy non stop calling her everyday nite and sms her everyday nite .. I really wanna make this a healthy relationship... and I really looking fwd to with Liz, not dreaming at all .. Kryz told me that I actually doing the right thing .. for never bug her too much. MeiYii said that she cant imagine when Liz and me talking romantic stuff and so on .. yeah ... I really duno anything bout this kinda stuff .. but y think is something that is so impossible to happen ??

All the things I purpose done it for her, send her back, willing to drive her anywhere, bought her a cake .. show some care . Everything is something that is not obvious, the main point is .. protecting her from ppl that could spread rumours. Keep it extremely low profile..

The lil hopping cute bunny that got her name stuck in my mind for so long, everytime I close my eyes, I can see her face, the way she smiles, the way she talk. Seeing her at least twice a week is alwiz the source makes me happy. Looking back to the SMS she sended to me last time, tho she send to everyone, but to me .. is some message that she actually send to me. Looking and reading back, is an ordinary msg for everyone, but is a special for me. When I get to noe she not happy or anything, silenty prayed for her, not letting her noe. Whatever she does, I support at the back of her. All I want is the moment that she still talk to me, keeping it healthy, then when is time, I confess to her. Can't blame me for this, coz I really really like her. No one else will noe my feeling.

"Li En ... I really really like you, and is for a long time that I never tell u b4, will you give me a chance ?"