Lonely ??

Just came back from some sort of yum cha session with Elaine and Iyin .. talk bout some our stuff .. after all this while we never come out and catch up .. those are really good time ..

Both of them got their bf .. even Elaine who just broke up and got a new bf ?! is like .. 7 months i stay single .. and .. sort of missing something .. the gal i like .. i still cant reach .. i stil cant tell her yet .. everyday . everynite, thinking bout her, looking at her, and making things not obvious at all .Am I doing da correct step ?? I hope I am .. I really hope.

Liz .. I really really like you .. but cant tell u now. But .. i duno y .. I felt that .. u and I will never happen to be couple or so .. sigh ..

Life

Days and days, none of the nite I actually can stop thinking bout her ..

I try not to, I wanna keep my life going and .. erm .. of coz I still like her, but the prob is I dun want to tell her that fast, I still wanna keep my plan .. called her at least twice a month, which I found is hard. Coz I dun want to kacau her that much ..

Still got around 5,6 months to go till next year January, that is when I plan to tell her my feeling and so on. At least this year is her SPM year.. she got lots of plan .. dun feel like interrupt any of them.

Give her the space ..So i shall patiently wait.

My Feeling

I feel like crying .. never had such heart broken b4 .. not after for so long.. I really really fall deep in her. Ever since the day i read that post .. ever since then I sad .. and sad, moody and moody. After all this while I prepared when to tell her .. and spend the effort to call her at least twice a month, just to get keep in touch with her and know her more. I really happy that I can at least do that. But now .. she said she like that guy .. if the guy like her .. then they might go together ..

Yesterday chat with her, really feel like telling "Liz !! The gal I mention is u! " .. I really feel like "Liz ! I like you !! " . We had the same thought that the word "love" is really a strong word. So at this case, the word "like" is used on. Do I need to just keep it or just tell ?? I guess I really need to keep it .. my feeling towards her. As I said, lets pray that nothing bad will happen, and happily till after her SPM .. I will confess to her. For I have like Liz for more than 6 months at least. I really supprise that I able to keep it that long. Guess I really care for her, dun want to distract her from study and so on, yet she is in diff stream, she need more time to catch up and so on.

Everyone telling me.. y dun u call her everyday?? Y everytime u see her in church, u just say hi and so on .. never take the effort to talk to her for long ?? Y dun u sms her ?? For all the asnwer is ... I simply want to give her more space, I noe that liz is a person tat prefer more space than some guy non stop calling her everyday nite and sms her everyday nite .. I really wanna make this a healthy relationship... and I really looking fwd to with Liz, not dreaming at all .. Kryz told me that I actually doing the right thing .. for never bug her too much. MeiYii said that she cant imagine when Liz and me talking romantic stuff and so on .. yeah ... I really duno anything bout this kinda stuff .. but y think is something that is so impossible to happen ??

All the things I purpose done it for her, send her back, willing to drive her anywhere, bought her a cake .. show some care . Everything is something that is not obvious, the main point is .. protecting her from ppl that could spread rumours. Keep it extremely low profile..

The lil hopping cute bunny that got her name stuck in my mind for so long, everytime I close my eyes, I can see her face, the way she smiles, the way she talk. Seeing her at least twice a week is alwiz the source makes me happy. Looking back to the SMS she sended to me last time, tho she send to everyone, but to me .. is some message that she actually send to me. Looking and reading back, is an ordinary msg for everyone, but is a special for me. When I get to noe she not happy or anything, silenty prayed for her, not letting her noe. Whatever she does, I support at the back of her. All I want is the moment that she still talk to me, keeping it healthy, then when is time, I confess to her. Can't blame me for this, coz I really really like her. No one else will noe my feeling.

"Li En ... I really really like you, and is for a long time that I never tell u b4, will you give me a chance ?"

Heart Broken

=( this is so bad, read liz's blog and ... saw a phrase ..

"Recently, I noticed someone. And then, I got interested in him. He doesn't really know me, but I always seem to be thinking about him. Which is not very good, it is very very distracting."

This phrase itself is more than enuff to make me sad and so on .. was really hopping to .. looking fwd .. and end up ..

Should I wait ?? keep on trying ?? or .. sigh.

Y ler ..

Went to 1u watch movie with Kryz, cow they all .. whacko ! liz cant even make it ... movie starts right b4 we went in .. duh .. coz we late .. looking at the empty space besides me .. seriously sad .. terpaksa imagine that is beside ?? that is sound so stupid .. but I really krazeee over her.

Yay !

hehehe guesssssss wat .. yesterday nite i called her .. had a at least half and hour talk ?? hahhaa but is more than enuff .. it already lighten up my day .. is really long time i never get to talk to her dat much after 2 months ?? hehe i love the moment .. sad is the next day got sports day .. if not can talk longer or so ..

today went to churhc .. saw her .. 1st time !!!! 1st time she happily smile and wave at me .. =D u noe how wonderful is dat ??

Is nice to be in love

hehehhe is alwiz nice to be in love .. thou she still duno anything yet .. but i dun mind .. haha lets see .. when i got chance i just confess to her ? =)