speechless

wrong move .. wrong move ..

happy and happy ..

2nd day i get to fetch her back .. at least is not really a bad move this time

=)

hehe .. a lil sms from her .. for thanks that I care for her =D

Well

SPM is anytime .. and . I patiently wait for her to fin her exam .. and .. we will go out together =)

hehe ..

BLaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

SMS from her again !

Yay !!! She send me a sms reply . =) at least she did .. but .. is only 2 ..

guess she is really really off her phone and concentrate on study ..

y like dat wan ?

=( y no sms being reply from her ??

Missing someone

hmm .. is being some time I never send her any sms or receive from her .. guess she is out of credit at the moment

Wheeeee !!!!

She msg me !!! Yesterday nite .. she send me a msg

"Hey Ben!how was e concert? heh managed to find someone to go wif u?"

=) a short msg .. but is more than enuff to make me happy

Take it slow

Take it slow and be patient .. I really realy haf to careful bout her this time , dun wanna mess up another time ..

GIve her more personnal time or sms her at least 3 days once ?? or more ??

I guess .. haf to encourage her .. exam is coming again .. and is better dun disturb her that much rite ?

Hmm

Life is good .. everything is good .. esp when the part Ps Vernon told me bout my some sort of future .. bout God's plan .. and what it will be ..

Been SMS evelyn for some time .. not everyday .. but very often .. everything is fine =)

I really ..

As wat I said earlier .. I like this lil gal .. name - Evelyn . wat hapen to liz ??

Just .. some prob .. and I really haf to think over and over again and end up .. haf to forget bout her. Reason ?? Dun ask me .. dun want to recall back any of them.

I need to noe her more .. again. And .. not really supprise to me, that she is the evelyn that Esther was talking bout .. and now she is staying at Esther's house. Like wat I thoguht .. is not that conincidence .. but is really her .. Evelyn Chin that I noe .. is same person with the Evelyn that Esther mention

Change Target

Somehow .. think and think . I change my target, no point to stay at someone that u noe that u will never get ..

Yay !!!

she talked to me !!! after God noes how long .. 1st time ..today she was talking to me . .and is not that cold anymore !!!! (or maybe not cold at all )

a very short wan .. but is better than dun haf ..

Is cold .....

Is so cold .. is so cold .. is like I've been send to the land of iggy ..

no response .. no nothing ... am I just too sensitive ??

hope so ...

Sad or ..

She say . she got shortlisted to the exchanging student stuff .. this time is US or Spain .. and will be a very long want .. so gonna miss her .. tho she treat me so cold .

Honestly .. dun want she go .. but she looking fwd to it .. and yet she is so happy with it, I gues.. is for her good .. to let her enjoy and happy, whatever she do.. I just want to see the smile on her face, I dun really care bout myself by now .. all I want is she happy ..

Sigh .......

cold cold ..

Told her that I wont be in CF anymore .. and she replied with cold way .. "ooh . ok .. "

sigh .. Guess she found out .. and I haf to forget bout her ..

=(

she treat me so cold ..

MIssing her

Sigh .. I really missing her .. alot alot .. =(

Lonely ??

Just came back from some sort of yum cha session with Elaine and Iyin .. talk bout some our stuff .. after all this while we never come out and catch up .. those are really good time ..

Both of them got their bf .. even Elaine who just broke up and got a new bf ?! is like .. 7 months i stay single .. and .. sort of missing something .. the gal i like .. i still cant reach .. i stil cant tell her yet .. everyday . everynite, thinking bout her, looking at her, and making things not obvious at all .Am I doing da correct step ?? I hope I am .. I really hope.

Liz .. I really really like you .. but cant tell u now. But .. i duno y .. I felt that .. u and I will never happen to be couple or so .. sigh ..

Life

Days and days, none of the nite I actually can stop thinking bout her ..

I try not to, I wanna keep my life going and .. erm .. of coz I still like her, but the prob is I dun want to tell her that fast, I still wanna keep my plan .. called her at least twice a month, which I found is hard. Coz I dun want to kacau her that much ..

Still got around 5,6 months to go till next year January, that is when I plan to tell her my feeling and so on. At least this year is her SPM year.. she got lots of plan .. dun feel like interrupt any of them.

Give her the space ..So i shall patiently wait.

My Feeling

I feel like crying .. never had such heart broken b4 .. not after for so long.. I really really fall deep in her. Ever since the day i read that post .. ever since then I sad .. and sad, moody and moody. After all this while I prepared when to tell her .. and spend the effort to call her at least twice a month, just to get keep in touch with her and know her more. I really happy that I can at least do that. But now .. she said she like that guy .. if the guy like her .. then they might go together ..

Yesterday chat with her, really feel like telling "Liz !! The gal I mention is u! " .. I really feel like "Liz ! I like you !! " . We had the same thought that the word "love" is really a strong word. So at this case, the word "like" is used on. Do I need to just keep it or just tell ?? I guess I really need to keep it .. my feeling towards her. As I said, lets pray that nothing bad will happen, and happily till after her SPM .. I will confess to her. For I have like Liz for more than 6 months at least. I really supprise that I able to keep it that long. Guess I really care for her, dun want to distract her from study and so on, yet she is in diff stream, she need more time to catch up and so on.

Everyone telling me.. y dun u call her everyday?? Y everytime u see her in church, u just say hi and so on .. never take the effort to talk to her for long ?? Y dun u sms her ?? For all the asnwer is ... I simply want to give her more space, I noe that liz is a person tat prefer more space than some guy non stop calling her everyday nite and sms her everyday nite .. I really wanna make this a healthy relationship... and I really looking fwd to with Liz, not dreaming at all .. Kryz told me that I actually doing the right thing .. for never bug her too much. MeiYii said that she cant imagine when Liz and me talking romantic stuff and so on .. yeah ... I really duno anything bout this kinda stuff .. but y think is something that is so impossible to happen ??

All the things I purpose done it for her, send her back, willing to drive her anywhere, bought her a cake .. show some care . Everything is something that is not obvious, the main point is .. protecting her from ppl that could spread rumours. Keep it extremely low profile..

The lil hopping cute bunny that got her name stuck in my mind for so long, everytime I close my eyes, I can see her face, the way she smiles, the way she talk. Seeing her at least twice a week is alwiz the source makes me happy. Looking back to the SMS she sended to me last time, tho she send to everyone, but to me .. is some message that she actually send to me. Looking and reading back, is an ordinary msg for everyone, but is a special for me. When I get to noe she not happy or anything, silenty prayed for her, not letting her noe. Whatever she does, I support at the back of her. All I want is the moment that she still talk to me, keeping it healthy, then when is time, I confess to her. Can't blame me for this, coz I really really like her. No one else will noe my feeling.

"Li En ... I really really like you, and is for a long time that I never tell u b4, will you give me a chance ?"

Heart Broken

=( this is so bad, read liz's blog and ... saw a phrase ..

"Recently, I noticed someone. And then, I got interested in him. He doesn't really know me, but I always seem to be thinking about him. Which is not very good, it is very very distracting."

This phrase itself is more than enuff to make me sad and so on .. was really hopping to .. looking fwd .. and end up ..

Should I wait ?? keep on trying ?? or .. sigh.

Y ler ..

Went to 1u watch movie with Kryz, cow they all .. whacko ! liz cant even make it ... movie starts right b4 we went in .. duh .. coz we late .. looking at the empty space besides me .. seriously sad .. terpaksa imagine that is beside ?? that is sound so stupid .. but I really krazeee over her.

Yay !

hehehe guesssssss wat .. yesterday nite i called her .. had a at least half and hour talk ?? hahhaa but is more than enuff .. it already lighten up my day .. is really long time i never get to talk to her dat much after 2 months ?? hehe i love the moment .. sad is the next day got sports day .. if not can talk longer or so ..

today went to churhc .. saw her .. 1st time !!!! 1st time she happily smile and wave at me .. =D u noe how wonderful is dat ??

Is nice to be in love

hehehhe is alwiz nice to be in love .. thou she still duno anything yet .. but i dun mind .. haha lets see .. when i got chance i just confess to her ? =)

IS all bout secret and secret

A lil secret blog is alwiz the best, owned 3 blogs by now .. a primary, a testing and not to forget this is the secret blog that will never exposed to anyone at all ! Safe for me to type every single things inside here and so on.

Somehow .. somehow .. I really got no idea should I acutally confess again?? But all I feel is avoid-ing .. I dun like that feeling, none of the time she actually iggy me. No matter how .. she will reply my msg in msn or so .. had I bug her too much? I dun really think so. Never call her at all .. never sms all the time, all I do is .. when I found some funny garfield comic, then only I send it to her. and not to forget some cards. Is it what I do all the time is showing her that I like her? I hope is not.

No idea did Meiyii told her or not .. dun think kryz will do so. Neway ... is been a very long time since the last chat .. is either face to face or msn or even phone .. sigh..

Y ??

Yo !!!!!!!!! really dunno wat to say laaa !!!!!! Y is like everyone i fall in love with will end up such a mess ??? STUPID ! y cant i just keep my mouth shut ?? and y i will just tell ppl bout it ??

I LIKE her ! !! BUT SO WAT ?? I thoought i really can keep dat long ... not even dare te tell her .. but wat happen is now .. MeiYii noes that I like her .. duno how she noes, but she just too bright .. not blur at all ! What i got now is .. I feel that she is AVODING ME!~! Y ?? No idea how she found out .. or she sense it .. this is wat i hate most, reject me nvm .. but pls pls pls dun avoid me.

I really really really feel like crying now .. I cant take tis anymore .. y cant i just can had a nice happy realtionsship ?? Is like more than 5 months i been liking her .. i thought is not obvious .. i really thought i can ask her bout it .. wat i mean is confess .. but wat i can do now ?? cry myself ..

I hate this kinda situation ..