IS all bout secret and secret

A lil secret blog is alwiz the best, owned 3 blogs by now .. a primary, a testing and not to forget this is the secret blog that will never exposed to anyone at all ! Safe for me to type every single things inside here and so on.

Somehow .. somehow .. I really got no idea should I acutally confess again?? But all I feel is avoid-ing .. I dun like that feeling, none of the time she actually iggy me. No matter how .. she will reply my msg in msn or so .. had I bug her too much? I dun really think so. Never call her at all .. never sms all the time, all I do is .. when I found some funny garfield comic, then only I send it to her. and not to forget some cards. Is it what I do all the time is showing her that I like her? I hope is not.

No idea did Meiyii told her or not .. dun think kryz will do so. Neway ... is been a very long time since the last chat .. is either face to face or msn or even phone .. sigh..

Y ??

Yo !!!!!!!!! really dunno wat to say laaa !!!!!! Y is like everyone i fall in love with will end up such a mess ??? STUPID ! y cant i just keep my mouth shut ?? and y i will just tell ppl bout it ??

I LIKE her ! !! BUT SO WAT ?? I thoought i really can keep dat long ... not even dare te tell her .. but wat happen is now .. MeiYii noes that I like her .. duno how she noes, but she just too bright .. not blur at all ! What i got now is .. I feel that she is AVODING ME!~! Y ?? No idea how she found out .. or she sense it .. this is wat i hate most, reject me nvm .. but pls pls pls dun avoid me.

I really really really feel like crying now .. I cant take tis anymore .. y cant i just can had a nice happy realtionsship ?? Is like more than 5 months i been liking her .. i thought is not obvious .. i really thought i can ask her bout it .. wat i mean is confess .. but wat i can do now ?? cry myself ..

I hate this kinda situation ..